Ok, not a popular topic. But we’ve all been there, right? Those times you had intense dislike or disgust for yourself. Maybe even hatred. Where you give yourself a good talking to over and over and over again. Or you yelled F-bomb me at the top of your lungs. Maybe it was that walk of shame after a one night fling. Or never finishing college. Throwing up out the car window after drinking Boonesberry cheap-ass wine. Forgetting who you had a date with that night. Not attending someone’s wedding that you should have, no matter what. Getting caught with your pants down. No motivation to lose that twenty pounds. Or at least exercise. Going to the wrong ROTC class all semester (true story that may come to light later).
To help you start pondering your own list, here’s what I’ve heard from very reliable sources:
- Drinking more than three glasses of wine (that decline in energy the next day sucks. Yea, you can crawl your way through the day but someone might step on your hands.
- Not planning well enough for retirement. Sell shit or die!
- Under loving someone who deserved a better quality of attention from me. Can’t rectify it with the same person so I will pay it forward.
- Forgetting to take the kleenex out of pockets before doing the wash. I had a forest of snow-flocked clothes.
- Leaving town with hubby’s car keys. Motorcycles are not fun in the rain.
- Not ending a friendship when I should have (like before it started).
- Letting my mojo come and go. Hang on to that magical, supernatural luck, charm or skill.
- Not showing gratitude to everyone that I should. Musicians, friends, family, the dog, the cat, strangers. Too late comes too soon.
- Valuing security in certainty. Uncertainty keeps spontaneity alive.
- Not jumping at an opportunity. The traffic lights of life give us three colors but the crossing is up to us.
- Picking my college major because it was easy, not because it was my passion, talent, or calling. Duh!
- Letting someone make you feel stupid. Just because something is silly, mindless and fluffy-fun doesn’t mean it’s stupid. If you’re attracted to it, it makes you smile and maybe ponder or wonder or think–it’s valid!
Did you ever forgive yourself? If you can’t forgive yourself then you can’t forgive anyone. Terrible way to go through life, isn’t it?
What’s on your list?